Feeling Under The Weather. =(

Warning:  This is an emote post.  Please bear with me. Hello Muthers, how’s your day doing so far?...

Warning:  This is an emote post.  Please bear with me.

Hello Muthers, how’s your day doing so far?  If you would ask me, I’m not having a great morning, not feeling well too (physically and emotionally.)

Why you may I ask, because of the following reasons:

  1. I’m having a terrible migraine.
  2. I reprimanded my Dandre this morning before going to school, a day after his birthday.
  3. I’m filing a half-day SL again and they are near depletion already.
  4. I had a feat with my crying (make that nagwawala with matching hampas sa door) toddler because he doesn’t want me to go to work.

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So there goes my Wednesday morning.  Alam niyo, I do not like the feeling of getting mad at my kids for something they didn’t do well.  I love them with all my heart and everything I have seriously.   If you’re also a parent you’d know that part of loving them is teaching them well.  Teaching them sometimes involve reprimanding them for not doing what they’re supposed to do.

I feel so guilty for getting mad at him the day after his birthday.  I think that’s the reason why I am super heartbroken, which also caused my migraine.  I feel so bad because I had to do it and that he cried because he disappointed me.

I want to give him a good future and a quality education, that’s why I sent him to a good school.   Sometimes we get frustrated at things when it’s not going our way.  But I know that it’s also not correct to expect too much when you know for yourself that you work Mondays to Fridays and come home late.

Now that’s where my guilt kicked in.  I expect him to do really well in school but yet, I’m not physically always there to guide him and tutor him with his studies.  Yes I may have set him study guidelines, but it’s different when you are actually there right?  I just feel so bad right now.  My heart is crying in pain.

I sometimes am envious of mommies who work from home because apart from generating an income for the family, they get to be with their kids at home.  But for now, our situation is telling me that that’s not an option, maybe in the future.  I’m heavily contemplating on that lately.

Family comes first yes, but I sacrifice that part at times, because I had to leave the house everyday for work.  Not that I am complaining, I’m blessed to have the job I have and the benefits that come with it.  But my heart is unnaturally conditioned to suck the separation anxiety all in, especially with my smart and sweet toddler.  If I could have it my way, I would want to bring him to work every day.  Or, if I am the company owner, I would build a huge play area for my parent-employees who want to bring their kids to work.  This way, my employees would no longer leave home with a heavy heart.   But Louise, only in your perfect world.
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Anyway, I know I have to make a more efficient study routine and guidelines for my big boy and a better Mommy’s-Now’Going-To-Work-Bye-Baby technique (without bribing ha!)

Would you recommend any Super Mommy Power pill to me?  If you know any, hit it at the comments below please?  Tomorrow’s going to be better I know.  K, Thanks, Bai.

P.S. Pasensya na sa emote ko Muthers, minsan lang yan.  Alam niyo yan. :)

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17 comments

  1. Lally Ruth M. GonzalesSeptember 11, 2013 at 10:41 AM

    I also have a baby who is 10 months old only. Everyday parang napipilitan na lang din ako mag work, kaso no choice eh. I need to work. Someday soon, I will be working from home. We will working from home mommy Louise. This is my prayer. Get well soon and God bless!

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  2. aw.... hugs for you, sis. dont feel bad. ganun talaga tayong mga working moms. ndi nawawala ang guilt feeling. laging nanjan. pero like what my friend said to me before: mas malaking tulong ka sa anak mo na nagwowork ka para sa future nila.

    deal on the positive side. :)

    as for saying bbye. with me, hide and seek ang drama namin magnanay. papataguin ko sila ng yaya o lola nya then, eskapo na ako LOL

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  3. Sometimes I also feel guilty when my kids do not do well in school because I failed to teach them somehow. Take note I'm already a work-at-home mom. It still happens. We just need to know how to really manage time and our priorities. Things do get better, you know.

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  4. Thanks Chin Chin at least I know that I'm not alone. Things will get better.. Thank you!

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  5. Thanks Nerisa! I'll do that, see the positive side and at the same time improve and fill in areas where I lack. Thanks sis! Where doi you work? :-)

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  6. Hi Lally! I do hope so too! Thank you for the encouragement and for sharing your story. So hard no? :-)

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  8. Eto ang bonggang super-mommy pill, Louise- a hug and kiss from your boys! Di ba? I sometimes have tough days and yes, I emote a lot of times, and yes, sometimes, it is over my teen girls, but you know, hug lang ni little boy sabay telling me I am the best mommy in the whole wide world, a hug and a sorry from my girls sabay they tell me how tough their day was too, sobrang ok na ako. (oh, yes, we moms tend to concentrate on our worries that we forget the worries of our kids. Pressure galore din mga yan! Imagine, mom and dad wants them to do well in school kaya lang si teacher, ang hina ng voice, di maintindihan ang lesson and ang sungit pa and yung crush niya, friend lang turing sa kanya. Nag-aral naman, di nga lang pina-exam ni sungit teacher yung inaral, kumuha siya sa lessons ng first grading para ipa-exam sa second grading. you know, little pressures but still, pressures pa rin for our kids). So once you hug each other, both of you are letting go of worries and replacing them with love. Hayyy, mini post hehe. Cheers, Louise!

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  9. We always tend to forget ourselves when it comes to the people we love because we always want to give them the best that at times it takes a toll on our health. I like what you said that it is not correct to expect too much, not only from ourselves but from our kids as well as they too have their own set of stress - from school, peer pressure and the expectations to always give their best . Learning should be fun and I believe this should be planted in our kids' young minds as early as possible so that when the time comes that stress will try to take away all that enjoyment not only from their studies but in everything that they aspire, there is still the competitive spirit that will keep the drive to achieve.


    Motherhood is such a woven tug of war of emotions that at times we only learn to realize a lot of things when we take time to reflect. I hope you are now feeling much better and by the way, it is okay to be emotional especially if you are feeling under the weather.

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  10. naku sis, we live in cavite and i work at Pasay. so maaga talaga ako umalis sa bahay. torn nga ako if mas okay ba na tulog si Neo pagaalis ako para no crying and shouting, o gising sya para he sees me first thing in the morning bago ako umalis. hirap no?

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  11. Sheena Mamaril MalateSeptember 12, 2013 at 11:58 AM

    Hi Ms. Louise.. I feel you. I am also a working mom. Palaging parang dinudurog ang puso ko kapag umaalis na ako ng bahay para magwork. Hayy. Someday, magiging ok din tayo. Deal with the positive side na lang. May mga dapat talaga tayong isacrifice. Just think na lang, na we're doing this for our children, because we love them.

    Medyo relating ang post ni mommy fleur na nabasa ko sa blog nya. In case na hindi mo pa nabasa, eto sya:

    http://www.mommyfleur.com/2013/09/11/on-being-a-super-mom/



    Hoping that everything will be fine soon. God bless.

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  12. Hi @Marie your message gave me an instant relief from yes, worries (never-ending at that) of a mommy who all she wants is the best for her children. But yes, thanks for the perspective that they too have their own worries and pressures nga naman from us. Naku, I'll wait pa pala til my eldest's teen years.. baka makasulat ako ng isang buong libro of pag-eemote! waaaaaaaaaaaaahhh! Thanks Marie sincerely for taking time to write to me! Super kaya naiyak ako.. :( Thank you! Huuuuuuggs sis! :) God bless you always! :)

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  13. Thank you Sarah for cheering me up. Just reading your concern about how I feel about this and actually telling me that these worries are sometimes okay, made me feel better. I agree, LEARNING SHOULD BE FUN! I should keep that in mind all the time. Admittedly, I sometimes forget putting that in our studies. Thank you so much for taking time in writing your message of encouragement to me. It means a lot! Hope to meet you soon someday! Take care and always have a great day! Huuugs! :)

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  14. Thank you @sarah bucu for cheering me up. Just reading your concern about how I feel about this and actually telling me that these worries are sometimes okay, made me feel better. I agree, LEARNING SHOULD BE FUN! I should keep that in mind all the time. Admittedly, I sometimes forget putting that in our studies. Thank you so much for taking time in writing your message of encouragement to me. It means a lot! Hope to meet you soon someday! Take care and always have a great day! Huuugs! :)

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  15. My dearest @Sheena Mamaril Malate Thank you for taking time to console with my pagiging emote! Yes agree, I should deal more with the positive side that we're doing all these for our children. I am much better now. thank you! You have a nice day dear ha! God bless you too! :) HUUUGS!!! :)

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  16. Yah. mahirap. i have a 2 year old kid nga. Di ko alam kung naiintindihan ako pero eveyrtime I tell her something, she does the other way around. i don't want to reprimand her pero she's doing the thing that we don't want her to do. I dunno how to discipline a 2-year old kid. sakit sa ulo! but i have to be super extra patient pa.. kulang pa, hays!! mothering dilemma

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  17. True Sis! Patience is the key to our motherhood success hahaha! :) Indeed this is the hardest job on earth! :)

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